most of the time.. i don't say anything when i do nice things because i don't want appreciation or recognition (i want to try to be as selfless as i can possibly be- think phoebe from Friends).

but i really hate it when i'm nice and i get owned by it!!!! i hate it when people get defensive at things that i say when they have NO REASON to be. i seriously dont think that i give them reason to! i think i'm pretty nice in general.. even when i'm angry. i'm honest when i'm angry. if i don't want to talk to you, i'll tell you. i hate talking to people when i'm angry.. and hate it more that they talk to me when they're angry.

but sometimes i do nice things for ppl and dont tell them and they get angry at me. they fight unfair. i hate when i call people out and they say something like.. "well YOU do this this this." okay, maybe i'm guilty of it too, but not to the extent that some people do it. i'll work on it too. really, i will.

and no, i'm not just talking about one person. its like.. everyone. i hate when people are tactless and dont know that they me when i am just being kind. i hate it a lot when people hit my achilles heel ... like say things where they KNOW it'll hurt. and that happens a lot.

just cause i dont look angry or hurt doesn't mean i'm NOT. :( booo on you all.


ps. tell me if i do this too. i want to know and change.