empty

I got into graduate school.. and I'm probably going.
I just graduated in 3 years.
I just ended my undergraduate career with a 3.88 (the BEST GPA I have had in college).
I'm going to Europe for about 37 days. Who gets to do that for so long?

And yet, there's this void and emptiness. It seems like I have everything going for me. You might think that I'm ungrateful since I have all this, and I'm not happy. Well, I'm not UNhappy. I'm just sad and nostalgic. I have most of that stuff because I worked really hard, and that's not to be bigheaded. I really did work for it. But I think I really regret working so hard for it because I know other things are more important in life.

I feel bad that I feel empty, but I can't deny that I do. It makes me wonder where I place God in my life. My life shouldn't feel lonely and empty with God in my life, so why does it? Actually, honestly? I think I feel empty because I don't trust God right now. I don't see where His plan meets with mine or whatever. I'm in a transitional stage of my life and I'm not trusting God to pull me through.. and I really need to be trusting.